This semester for me has had its ups and downs. One feeling that I have experienced most of all is not feeling good enough for me, for others or for my dreams. I feel as though I am giving my best, and sometimes my best is not good enough for people.
This feeling comes along with a lot of doubt and negative self-talk. I’m in a constant cycle of thinking “I should be like this; I am not supposed to feel like I have my life figured out,” and then thinking the total opposite. “I need to have the next five years planned out because the next five years will be here before I know it.”
The stress that builds keeps me awake at night. It’s thoughts of what I need to be doing, what I should be doing, what I could do better, what I need to do tomorrow and the dreaded embarrassing moments of my life.
I don’t want to sugarcoat it, so I won’t: It sucks.
When I am feeling like this, I turn to music, which is what I am doing right now as I am writing this. Music allows me to express all of my emotions and put my mind at ease – I could not live my life without it.
You never know what someone is truly going through. That is why it is important to remember that everyone is human. We make mistakes, but it’s how you learn and grow from it that makes you a better person. Treat people with kindness, especially if they don’t return the favor.
Just remember: You are worthy. You are talented. You believe in yourself. Even if you don’t, I do.
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